Sunday, August 24, 2008

Still fighting

To ease the new poem in, let’s talk about how heroic I’ve become in the context of staying in my room. There are numerous (read: infinite) insects visiting my room every second. The downside, of being in the first room on the ground floor of my hostel. *sigh*. (Akshaya named it “Animal Farm” :). Funny to you reading it probably, but AWFUL to endure, day-in-day-out.

So ya, heroism. I actually hold the annoying little *@$!@&#$ and throw them away from me. It might sound like hey-that’s-nothing-really-great… But for those who know me, understand. I am so wehemi when it comes to insects, that I imagine them crawling all over me the moment I even see a tiny ant :. The smell of the all out is getting to me now. So. Yeah.

Well… now this post is starting to sound sad even to me.


Everyday Heroism

It's one of those days again
Without the sunny light,
The rain is lashing out
The world is blind to my plight.
Or maybe I didn’t show
The scars yet unhealed,
The pain still hurts so bad
Inside- strong and deep.
So why did I want it
The love, caring, sympathy,
When the trouble, really
Lay inside of me.

Heal I must from inside out
Not the other way around,
Expect I must not of anyone
But, in a smile- surround.
Cover the shortest distance
Between two unhappy people,
And walk it alone
In the end, so simple.

The world- all have their demons
To slay and put to rest,
I have naught to give, but smile
Though my will does protest.
Why me? Why should I?
When no one else does?
Why should I be good?
When no one else is?
They are, but I don’t recognize
The parallel in our situations,
They smile when I’m not looking
That churns out the wrong notions.

The good does reside inside me
Just have to peel the chaff away,
Stop caring about getting back, and
Be a Good Samaritan anyway.

25/08/2008

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Too much third

No. Don’t call these a on-a-roll posts.

I am simply lazy :D


Resurgence

Come to me my light
I stand here to greet you,
With my arms wide open…
Bestow on me now
All you have to shower,
I stand in this rain frozen.

My eyes drink away
A thirsty man’s drink,
Closing in sheer delight…
My skin is glowing
Joyous and flowing,
As it captures you in flight.

Come in once again
No small the stay,
Come to me and bless…
My life my love
My happiness and bliss,
With your magical caress.

My heart waits to greet you
And welcome you,
In it's tiny abode…
So you can fill me
And shine on,
From me to all in your fold.

15/08/2008

Yeh Main Hoon

So, “another one bites the dust”.

I realize and understand so much more of what all these songs mean so much more now-a-days. It's like these sudden dawns. This is a great feeling of freedom, where I can simply write and express myself. No rhymes. No necessary coherence. No unnecessary frill. No conventional grammar/meaning. Hmm… so blogs became popular.

As of today, my OSS (one song syndrome) is “Yeh main hoon” by Kaavish. I so identify with the lyrics and the song itself. Its funny how so many people around the world may identify with this song… how similar does that make us? Anyway… here are the lyrics. It's a beautiful beautiful song. Free download is available at the band’s official website.


Yeh Main Hoon
- Kaavish


Yeh main hoon
Aur yeh meri duniya hai

Kya seekha tumne iss duniya se
Kya seekha tumne iss tanhai se

Iss tanhai mein mujhe who roshni dikhti hai
Jo bahut insanon ko
Bahar ki us hari bhari duniya me nahi dikhti

Magar is roshni mein aisa bhi kya hai
Jo tumhe le jata hai us taraf
Us roshni ki taraf

Us roshni ki sabse khaas baat ye hai
Ki main uske peechhe sari zindagi bhagta rahoonga
Saari zindagi

Kya seekha tumne is duniya se
Kya seekha is tanhai se
Kya seekha, aakhir kya seekha tumne

Duniya us aurat ki tarah hai
Jiske peechhe jab tak tum khud bhagte raho
Wo tumhare haath nahi aati
Aur jaise hi tum uska peechha chhod do
Wo tamam khushiyan lekar tumhari taraf palat aati hai

Ye jo tum sham dhale aksar
Khud se yuhin baatein karte ho
Khud hi apne khayalon me gum se rehte ho
Aakhir aisa kyun hai

Main ye baat samajhne laga hun
Ki woh roshni jo mujhe door khade dikhti hai
Wo roshni darasal mere andar hi hai

Tumhari duniya ke bahar bhi ek duniya hai
Aao main tumhe le chalun us duniya mein

(brilliant music)
Rangon mein jeene ki aadat nahin hai meri
Tumhe tumhari duniya mubarak
Wo tumhari duniya hai
Ye main hoon.

Higher Purpose... ?

Even as I am typing this, I wonder about the “higher purpose” about this stuff (ref: ‘Keep off the grass’- Karan Bajaj. Lovely book btw). I mean am I:

1. Over hyping things
2. Being over sensitive
3. Being pseudo… something (I know I will find this extremely funny on a later date) (!)
4. Being melodramatic
5. Overdramatic
6. Finding meaning in the wrong places
7. Trying to look for the wrong meanings in the first place
8. Having distorted priorities
9. ETC (!!)

But anyway… yes I love the word. Here goes:


Ephemerality

It will pass like just another day
No one will stop and wait,
And even you will forget with time
With no cause left to celebrate.

It's all fugacious,
It's all surreal,
Blurred lines them all…
You wake up to wonder,
Dreams or reality,
Or if you’ve had a fall.

So come, let’s traverse these foggy lanes
Hand in hand with the present,
That leads forward sure and steady
To live your life on rent.

17/08/2008

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Ressurection

Well, this comes with a double meaning... I have been told time and again to start utilising this space... I don't know how successful/meaningful (?) it will prove to be... or even how long I can sustain the interest/enthu...

I think I want to keep it mainly as my online-very-secret-space/diary... no, not for the dirty linen! For the arbit poetry I write............. I won't say why I haven't digitised and shared them earlier... Mostly because the reasons don't even convince me always... *sigh*

Anyway... for the time being. Poem follows. What I feel is one of my best yet... the type that most readers identify with (or so I hope! *looks down mockingly*)

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Resurrection

Love me not for my beauty or sorrow
But for my love and pain,
My eyes glisten, they wait for you
Oh come back, come back once again.

Leave me not to these cadavers
They rot my remaining flesh,
Take me away to Atlantis
A hero in me enmeshed.

The aging traditions bind me down
I'm unable to break the mould,
Oh shut out the sun, and let it pour
The casting can tear away bold.

I speak out to you, please hear me now
Leave me not in the dark
I suffocate alone, no hand to hold
Come again and pray for me now.

31/10/2007

Complimenting the first post


… Of imagination

Breaking petals…
Shooting stars…
But hopeful…
For real… but surreal maybe.

After sunrise…
Before sunset…
In between…
For real… but surreal maybe.

Moonless nights…
Lightless days…
No fantasy…
For real… but surreal maybe.

With guns…
Sometimes roses…
Thorns always…
For real… but surreal maybe.

Broken words…
Vacuumed thoughts…
Misshapen life…
For real… but surreal maybe.

Tearless eyes…
Bloodless hearts…
Reality bites…
For real… but surreal maybe.

Emotions- gone…
Feelings- killed…
Captivation- dead…
Surreal. Though real maybe…

17/05/2008